Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Learn This Life

In any condition, how dark it is, don't ever give up at all.. Because an expectation appear from despairing. How we can learn to get up if we never fall down. We have to made one condition how bitter it is become a lesson, because we will get suffer a loss if we go through without pluck a precious lesson from it. We can't measure the highness of the sky, the depth of the sea.. How we know about the fate? We know nothing, that's why we should learn..

Life And Death..

Life doesn't come from anywhere or go anywhere, it just go around with all other lives, it is a part of a great wheel. Death is not a destination, death is a part of our life. We live not to death, we will die, but not our self. When we death it is a new beginning for our self. Death is a complement in our life.

Rectoverso

Today we will talk about Recto verso. Recto verso is a painting that fill in each other between front side and back side, like a painting icon at the paper money. Our partial perspective will never see that our self is a Recto verso. Too many humans spent their life in an emptiness as if there is something lost from their self and never know what is that. Then they looking and looking.. Out from their substance.. and they lost. With many kind of way, they trying to definition this "something" lost. Most of them think this "something" has to be somewhere out there. Human designed to do one mission: Find Out The Human Source. Then what about if what we lookin' for is not out there. What we thought as incomplete actually is a Recto verso. In the idea that we don't have to go anywhere. To feel complete we just need to change our perspective. When we succeed to take a distance from seeds that crumbled inside our mind, Recto verso will showing up. What we looking for is very close, you just have to see it from different way. Stop feeling empty, stop asking to be completed, stop yelling to something out there, stop act like a fish in the pond but looking for water. Everything you need is available on your self. No other one could completed up something that already complete. Just your willingness to become aware. We never had anything, just our own self, so that we never lost something. Our self bigger than what we thought if we not bind it to something.

Ego and Soul

So let's talk about those two concepts, those roles. These are all constructs, concepts, we're making them up. There are no tangible, measurable boundaries structures here. But for practical reasons, these are ideas, mythic ideas, that in this day and age, and for a growing number of people, they work--these are effective. People generally know what you're talking about, and more, most folks seem to like it.
Your ego-self, that's your everyday sense of who you are. The soul is a role. The soul is a role. That's the role of the source of your imagery, your temperament, your individuality, your telic preferences, your creative inspirations, your aspirations.

Your ego-self is the mediator between your soul and the world. You are a team, your soul can't manifest without you. However, your ego-self can for a while, at least, dominate, out-talk, talk louder than, repress, and even forget the soul. It's a still, small, voice, as the prophet Isaiah called it. But in the long run, the yearnings of the soul will be expressed somehow, in psychosomatic illness, in slips of tongue and mind, in acts of self-sabotage or impassivity or compulsions. Much emotional and even social disorder may be attributed to or formulated in terms of a disharmony between the needs of soul and the petty efforts at self-control of the ego.

So the game of healing is to align these two roles, to recognize what each does best and to stop trying to substitute one for the other. Now we don't teach this skill in school, and it so far hasn't been widely taught even in the field of psychotherapy. How to serve your soul. You do need to serve it, you know, because it's already doing all it can for you. It never lets up, it may be suppressed, but it's always there. You can lose touch with it, but you can't lose it.

This Life..

There are too many misery in this life.. Sometimes we don't have to understand, we just have to know. Too many questions in this life unanswered, started from one "what" become million "why". We don't have to think about anything, anything will come by it self to us. Don't be sorry to our self, we don't need that. Our self is everything. We can choose what we want to be, we can be a God or Evil. Our life just like a boat, and we are the skipper, the crew are people arround us and life it self is the sea. We brought it anywhere according to us, we controlled it. Sometimes wind and wave spring on our ship, we just need to believe there is no storm or hurricane lasting forever, they must stop, Everything hang on us, our strength, skill, faithfull, and courage, if we can't pass it we wreck our ship, if we can pass it, we survive. And sometimes we have the rowdy crew, we just have to decide we want to throw them from the ship or we want to lead them. Do not think too much, Make your life simple as you can.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Same Day..

Today is the same day with days before.. I come here, sitting in front of this computer again.. Watching this stupid monitor and never know what to do.. Same day with days before where the same choice and same problem facing to me.. It's been one year I've been an idleness.. And know the same day with days before that so many job offering to me.. But the same day with days before.. All this fuckin' job gonna lost.. But i hope this day is not the same days before.. i hope one of this job gonna success with me.. but as a consequence maybe i will not surf this world again.. because if i take this job I'll be going to somewhere place and maybe this place has not any connection with internet.. To shame.. Because now i fall in love with this world.. It's like my home.. Because i feel like no home.. I've move and move from one place to other.. maybe it's my fate.. but maybe not, i never believe in fate.. Ok now.. last few days I've read a book.. Written on this book an evil circle

"Death give birth to tears, tears give birth to anger, when anger turn it self to rancour it's open to war.. war give birth to sorrow, sorrow give birth to strength, strength give birth to revenge and revenge give birth to death again."

And also written on this book

"You can't change the past, but you can face it, by facing it maybe you can find out where you are from and where you want to go or maybe where you belong."

You don't know why i tell you this right? I juz wanna tell u some words for ur better life, that's it.. Doesn't mean anything.. maybe this words could help your life, maybe not.. And i really don't care about that.. But i really mean this life is suck.. Why? don't you think this life is full of misery? You never know what will happen to you.. Some people call this is fate.. Some other kind of bullshit, our life should be controlled by us.. not the fate, why did God created us juz to follow His fate? And i tell you, there is no God.. I never believed God but i trust God exist, juz maybe we are not talking about the same God.. God is Evil to me and Evil is God to me. You can see both of them every where, included in you, me and another people. Ignore what i have written on this page, juz get the point what you can accept, I'm a lil' bit stress today and i don't know what i should write.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Hardest Thing..

You taught me how to love..
You taught me how to live..
You taught me how to laugh..
You taught me how to live..
But when you left..
You forget to teach me how to forget you..

The hardest thing i have to do is sitting with you..

Looking for you.. and knowing that you'll not be mine..

For You..

  • Giving all your love to someone is not a guarantee that he/she will show you a gratitude, don't even hope for it.. Wait until love growth on her/his heart.. but if not.. be happy because love growth on your heart.
  • There is a thing that you really want to hear it but you will never heard from someone that you expect to say. Not will standing, never deafened your ears to hear from the people who said it with the whole of his/her heart.
  • Never say goodbye if you still want to meet.. Never give up if you still take it.. Never ever say that you don't love him/her anymore if you still can't forget about him/her.
  • The most sadness thing in life is when you meet someone who really important for you and get it that not such a manner at last and you have to let it go.
  • It's really painful to love someone who doesn't love you but it's more painful when you love someone and never had a courage to tell him/her.
  • Only need a minute to want someone, a hour to like someone, a day tom love someone, but need a whole life time to forget someone.
  • I hope you have got enough happiness to make you kindly, enough of attempt to make you strong, enough of sadness to make you humanity, enough of hope to make you happy and enough of money to buy some present.
  • When one happiness door get closed, other door has opened, but we often get silenced too long to the closed door so that we never look to the door that opened to us.
  • Good friend is a friend who can sitting and sway with you on the balcony without say a word and you can left him with a feeling that you talked much wit him.
  • It's really true that we never know what we had until we lost it.. But it also true that we never know what we don't have until we got it.
  • Most of happiest people not always have the best thing.. They just trying to make all the things in their life be the best thing.
  • Be your self a honest one, and you'll be sure that one of the scoundrel in this world decreased one.
  • The 99's answer from 100 questions is money.
  • People who don't want to think is lazy.. who can't think is a dumb and unbrave to think is a slave.
  • If you get suffer.. Thank God.. it's mean that you alive.

Dumber n' Wise Man

  1. A dumber could tell you about what he knows but a wise guy knowing what he told you.
  2. Only a dumber an a dead man could never change their opinion.
  3. Better lose from a wise man than win from a dumber.

Tell me more..

Untittled..

Can't say how i feel..
Can't tell if my heart would heal..
But i always knew from the start..
I never really had your heart..
So.. leave me now before i cry..
The pain is too much to say good bye..
But always remember..
In each tear i shed..
An "I Love You" left unsaid.

Wait..

"Wait", That's what i said before you went away..
"Wait", That's what I'm doing until today..
Wait forever i guess i will..

I just wish i could have told you "Wait.. I Love You".

About Love..

This is a few point from me about love:
  • Love is not beautiful.. Love doesn't set us free.. Love is Tirane.. It's fetter us, drive us to the long way to sacrifice.
  • Love is more like an art, It's hard to explain but beautiful to experience.
  • Love is when you lost your taste, desire, and romantic but you still care to her/him.
  • Love started with a smile, growing up with a kiss and finish with the tears.
  • The beginning of love is let the people who we love become his own self, and don't ever change her/him to a person that we want. If not.. then we only love our reflection that we found on him/her.

Tell me about your description about love..

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Some Advice..

  • Don't ever get interested with someone because of his/her face, because the beauty of face can get you lost. Don't even get interested to his/ riches because it can be destroyed. Get interested with someone who can make you smile because only the smile could make your dark days become bright, Hope u can find people like that.
  • Dream about what you want to dream. Go to the places that you want to go. Be like the one who you like to be.. Because you only have one life and one chance to do what you want to do.
  • Look at all from another people point of view. If that hurt you, then it's really possible too it will be hurt another people.
  • Brightly future always depended on your forgotten past, you will never go through your life better if you never forget about your failure and painful on your past.
  • When you born you crying and people around you smiling.. Go through your life until the time when you die you make a smile and people around you cry.
  • Beware if people smile to you.. because a tiger show you his teeth when get angry.
  • get your attention to what people said.. don't get your attention to the people who said it.
  • Don't ever laughing to another people.. it will be your turn in a minute.
  • One time you get lie it will be twenty reason lie needed to support it.

Reality Of Life..

There is no beginning and ending. There is no cause and effect. There is no space and epoch. There is only to be.. Keep moving, expansion, evolution, hope the conclusion for nonsense because there is no conclusion in this life. But people only can be glorious in the middle of unconclusion. There is no regularly because it came from the great irregularity.

Moment..

You can't go after the moment. Moment come, and when it passed it's not a moment anymore, it become a memory, and memory couldn't bring us to anywhere. Memory is the rocks between the river stream, and we should be the stream, not the rocks. Everything happen without expecting. There is only one conclusion.. that is unconclusion. There is one deserve to be hoped to come.. that is unexpected. Stop to select what we want or not and stop to estimate about goodness and badness from anything. We lived not to judge but we are audience and observer.

Brain..

Our brain has seven basic response to keep healthy and offer the whole world to us. I'll explain one by one for you..
  1. Life and Dead Response.
    From this response this life get description as a jungle of struggle and your destination just one.. SURVIVE.
  2. Reactive Response.
    Response where our brain seek for created identity. After passed this point, more complex requisites will be showing up. That is acknowledgment of our self. This property recommend us to authority concept, regulation and law.
  3. Relaxation Response.
    In the middle of commotion materialistic world, brain that continuously active also need a rest. Brain want to be sure that out world not only a source for everything, and when it turn to inside, the fourth response showing up.
  4. Intuitive Response.
    Brain looking for information outside and inside. The external knowledge has the character of objective and the internal knowledge has the character of intuitive. On this level, brain started to learn on what on inside.
  5. Creative Response.
    Human has capable to create and explore the fact. This ability come inside at fully moment. Miracle.. that we named inspiration look at the creator and from the reflection we taste a part as a creator.
  6. Visionary Response.
    Brain has capability to directly contact with pure consciousness that not found in a materialistic world. On this level the phenomena called miracle or magic phenomena showing up.
  7. Purely Response.
    Brain come from one cell that doesn't has any brain function. It came from one piece of life, uncategory even there are billion of nerves composition hanging to brain but brain doesn't lost it root on purely. That's The truly source. Something you don't have to think but exist.
From this seventh response human lookin' out the world stretched out for them, and what they see depend on what response they use to. Brain is a tool that prepared to us to playing with life and faith. The game depend on you.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

The Friend Who Stand By You

When troubles come to your soul to try..
You love the friend who just stand by..
Perhaps there is nothing she/he can do..
The things is strictly up to you,,

For there are troubles all ur own..
And paths the soul must tread alone..
Times when love can't smooth the road..
Nor friendship lift the heavy load..

But juz to feel u have a frenz..
Woo will stand by until the end..
Whose sympathy through all endures..
Whose warm hand clasp is always yours..

It helps somehow to pull you through..
Although there is nothing she/he can do..
And so with fervent heart we cry..
God bless the frenz who just stand bye..

For Someone Out There

Dear My Lovely..
When i can't think of anything else..
when everything i care is about you..
When i rather sacrifice anything just for u..
And my heart beat rapidly when u lookin' to my eyes..
I feel love..

When one hour feels like one day..
One day feels like one week..
One week feels like one month..
And when everything i do seems incomplete..
Coz' u r not by my side..
I miss u..

I will never know i have u until i lost u..
And when the time come..
I'll know how precious u are..
That is regret..
But it was too late..
Regret comes after all good things disappeared..
And bring tears an pain with it..
So.. I wanna say that "I LOVE YOU"
Coz i'll never know what will happen later..